I woke up angry and struggling, crying out to God for some means of escape from the onslaught of temptation to look back and be bitter. As I was brushing my teeth, an invitation entered my muddled mind: "Put off and Put on" Put off anger, malice, bitterness, rage. Put on forgiveness and love. Immediately I knew which kind of choice I have been learning to make and my struggle lost its steam.
I won't lie by saying that the Sunday service was a breeze. It wasn't, but I'm still really glad I went. The worship reminded me that God is a perfect Heavenly Father! I cried through Lead Me and heard Jesus affirm that this desire is good and right, and He wanted it too. I realized that it was okay to learn how to be a godly dad, since that's a gap that I need to fill at this time. Finally, I could see a bit of a smirk on God's face as Pastor Dave ended with a challenge,
Forget the former things;He and I both know that next to forgiving, this is my chief assignment for now. So, along with gratitude for a never-changing, never-failing Heavenly Father, I'm thankful for my dad who continues to be my greatest champion. And, I'm anticipating more reasons to celebrate as I look up, look ahead and embrace His best for me.
do not dwell on the past.
See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?